Hot n' Cold Christmas Eve

6 am.

On the way rushing back to Manila.

Had a fight with my mom.

Away from home.

Slept for 4 hours.




Went to Mall of Asia.

Ate my favorite Chicken Cordon Bleu @ iceburgs.

WATCHED AVATAR AT CENTER STAGE MOA.



TOOK OUT PASTA AND PIZZA AT SBARRO.


7 pm.

Dinner.

Novelino Sweet red wine



+

Sbarro cooked foods.


+

Movie marathon.



= Contented Christmas eve

YET

STILL

ALL

ALONE.

A Christmas for the broken families

I arrived at home after a wholesome to goodness hangout with my high school friends only to find out that my mom has her own "party" going on at our house.

Based on my experience, any party within our house organized my mom will ALWAYS end up as a DISASTER...

DISASTER meaning she and my dad fighting in the end... with the screaming and the loud screeching of the tires of a car... doors slamming... my siblings silently crying.

and you know what, this time around...

I'M ALWAYS RIGHT...

Before the "bomb" exploded I already told my brother...

"Magtago ka na... malapit na umuwi ang mga bisita... may World War na uli mamaya"

And I sure was NOT wrong about it.

Just minutes ago I heard them screaming outside our house.

It was 2 in the morning.

They were as always fighting about my mom losing money to her greedy child of a demon sister ERNA (to hell with her!) and rumbling on and on and on how my dad "supposedly" have another woman... then with my dad taking over the company and stuffs from the past.

My dad emotionally beaten with the long history he had persevere to put the company back together... I know... unintentionally hurt my mom.

You know in the episodes that I had with my parents I never did once had the courage to face them while they're fighting...

the reasons:

THEY NEVER LISTEN...

THEY ALWAYS TELL "YOU ARE JUST MY DAUGHTER!"

THEY'VE HURT EACH OTHER SOOO MUCH THERE'S NO POINT OF FINDING THE REAL CAUSE OF THE FIGHT...

THEY SIMPLY CAN'T STAND TO BE WITH EACH OTHER

I'M SIMPLY TOO AFRAID...

TOO EMOTIONALLY TAKEN...

I'VE ALWAYS THOUGHT MYSELF STRONG...

I'VE ALWAYS HATED CRYING IN FRONT OF THEM.

I'VE BOTH HATED THEM.


I have no happy childhood memories of my family being together. There never was. I simply detached myself from them... ran away and hid in my room.

It has always been like that.

People would probably tell that this is just every teenager's problem.

Parents always believe that they know the best... that no matter what they do you'll forever have to respect them... respect them even if:

They drink themselves to insanity.

They don't fulfill promises.

They don't say "I love you"

When they really tried to KILL each other in front of you with your dad holding the knife to his neck...

When they always think maliciously of each other...

When everyone ELSE is at fault.

When they can't get over the past... always bringing up things that they know hurts you.

When they simply don't say anything after you worked your ass of to achieve an award...


I don't understand that why is it that I have the ever lasting obligation to show respect to these people... are parents under a monarchical position that just because they had sex and had you as their child you totally have to respect them?

People work so hard to the gain respect of another person... but as parents they could just do all that and they expect you to RESPECT them...

RESPECT is not something given...
It is gained... you work to earn it...
I don't believe that as parents you are excused for your behaviors and still demand a great utter respect despite of all...

You know the problem with my parents is that:

my mom is so malicious of everybody... of everything... she felt betrayed by her pig sister ERNA curse her to hell...

She always think that my dad's family is all against her... that actually my aunt whom she despises... asks every time I see her how my mom is... that every time I see this aunt... she'll always remind me to keep respecting my mom and be UNDERSTANDABLE...

And yet my mom says all the meanest things about her...
How could you believe your mom when you could really feel the sincerity of your aunt? How could you hate such a person? How do you choose who to believe and respect?

With my friends, I don't really respect those who talks all day long ill of another...

so why is it that such rule cannot apply to parents? When you have so high of a standard for friends and for other people... why is it that parents are infallible?

My dad... I confronted him years ago if he really has another... and he said "None" in front of me and my sister... and I believed him.

I try to.

I tried...

I do...

My mom made it so unbearable to make him stay at home...

but recently he went to Hong Kong and I called him... I didn't know he was there... and it was the first time... that I asked him where he was... that...

He HESITATED before answering my question.

I... Hate infidelity.
and yet...

I hate men leaving a woman for another. I cheaters. I hate adulterers. I hate mistresses. I hate "queridas". I hate 3rd parties.
and yet....
he always:

Fulfill his promises.

Supports my crazy projects and my studies.

provides everything I need.

and...

After all of the things that happened with him and my mom... he still reprimanded me for DISRESPECTING my mom the last time I did...

How in the hell will you hate a person who tries so hard to make things feel so good for you?

Is one mistake, if ever he really does, make all the good things seem unworthy?

"Till death do us apart" - SCREW IT!

Who will you believe?

Secrets. Past mistakes.

I don't know.

It's just that tonight... I really had it all... I'm so fed up with everything...

Tonight I finally spoke.

Tomorrow is Christmas day.

My birthday.

And it sucks.


Share yours....

Treat for special friends

This Christmas I decided to make my celebration for my birthday simple with just some friends...

I just realized that there really is no sense in celebrating too much...

I felt like something ought to change for my 19th birthday...


The first part of my celebration, I had my college friends of whom I treated at Pizza hut last Dec. 17 after our last day of Dipcor...

I would like to have my other friends come over but I just suddenly had the impulse to treat them then and there...

I never really planned it...


Days after, I planned a get together my treat again for my birthday with high school friends...

well... we initially planned to watch avatar then have our dinner... but we ended up eating dinner at Congo Grille and spending the rest of the night around seaside and having our chit-chat at starbucks....







Overall... it was great! We were fetched my dad and my sister...

Love this night....


Or so I thought it was.

Sick... So Sick

Friday.

Saturday.

Sunday.

Three days and my STOMACH is still in pain!

Darn.

Rachel my friend asked his dad (doctor).

I have spasms according to him.


Man.

Darn it!

COMGOVT project....

*guh*

Gotta survive!


STOMACH = SICK

COMGOVT = HEADACHE

WEEKEND = SO SICK

Drained the spirit of Christmas

Stressed.

Pressured.

Confused.




Drained.

Energy.

Lifeless.


Disillusioned.

Surreal.


Damn it!
I'm drained of Christmas Spirit.

Ogre from Hades,
give me back my Christmas!

Riki-Oh! Uh La La

Last Friday while hanging out with Bembie along with our handy dandy Laptops, our friend Demi with Kenneth and Mik tagged along.

And then....

Demi got hold of Bembie's laptop and everything went

RED.

Cause of....

Riki-Oh!!!

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=XnhLtB3n25c&feature=PlayList&p=271890F56BE30F34&index=0&playnext=1

My god... this movie is one of the most gory, disgusting and dumb-kick-ass movie!

The scenes will make you feel nauseous.

The fight scenes are bloody, impossibly surreal, and outrageously disgusting.

Well... if you want a yucky laugh with friends...

try watching RIKI-OH!!! Ahahahha... Uhhhh La La!

Wild After Party!

Of course after the nauseous eat-all-you-can we went to Harbor Square for a drinking session!

Me and the few others drank to our hearts content...








2 San Miguel Lights Towers.

4 drinkers.

1 is me.

EQUALS TO:

Me. Stomach. Aches.

Hangover = Upset Digestion.

Sated. Drinking. Thirst.

COD Officers Christmas Party!!

Ostentatious COD Christmas Party!
Last Dec. 12, 2009
@ YAKIMIX in Seaside Macapagal





Love the Eat-All-You-Can Japanese/Korean Food!
It's an Eat-All-You-Can so worthy of your money!


The food tastes great... And you get to cook for yourself...
*with some of their dishes*...





No wonder it's a favorite weekend restaurant for foreigners...

I'll definitely go back with my other friends...

*YakiMix is so in demand you have to make a reservation days or sometimes a week before your intended date*

After the nauseating fullness of our appetites we had our exchange gift.

Thanks to Lord for a very useful gift...


L-O-V-E C-O-D!!



Had a real great "Lamon" ~ lol

Chocolate Rush!!!

Yummy.

Chocolaty.

Moist.

Choco.

Birthday.

Cake.




I'm not a big fan of chocolates.

But this cake I don't know from what bakery just made my night w/out sleep.






CHOCOLATE RUSH!

NO SLEEP!

ENERGY RUSH!

The 70 Most Memorable Lines in Philippine Movie History

Got this from a friend... n_n hehehehe.... Enjoy!
Damdamin niyo....

In The History of Philippine Cinema, There are lines that have marked in Our minds.



1. "You're nothing but a second rate trying hard copycat!"

- Cherie Gil in 'Bituing Walang NInging'


2. "Para kang karinderyang bukas sa lahat ng gustong kumain!"

-Vilma Santos in 'Palimos ng Pag-Ibig'


3. "Walang himala! Ang himala ay nasa puso ng tao! Nasapuso nating lahat!"

- Nora Aunor in 'Himala'


4. "My brother is not a pig! My brother is not a pig! Ang kapatid ko'y tao, hindi baboy damo!"

-Nora Aunor in 'Minsa'y Isang Gamo-Gamo'


5."Once, twice, thrice, Gaano ba kadalas ang Minsan?"

- Hilda Koronel in 'Gaano ba kadalas ang Minsan'


6. "Ayoko ng tinatapakan ako, ayoko ng masikip, ayoko ng mabaho, ayoko ng walang tubig, ayoko ng walang pagkain, ayoko ng putik"

- Maricel Soriano in 'kaya kong abutin ang Langit'


7. "Hayop... Hayuuup... Hayuuupppp!"

- Nora Aunor in 'Ina Ka ng Anak Mo'


8. "Trabaho lang ito, walang personalan."

- Rudy Fernandez in 'Markang Bungo'


9. "Si Val! Si Val! Puro na lang si Val! Si Val na walang malay!"

- Vilma Santos in 'Saan Nagtatago ang Pag-Ibig?'


10. "Ikaw pala. Ikaw pala ang sinasabi ng asawa ko, na asawa mo, na asawa ng bayan!"

- Laurice Guillen in 'Nagalit ang Buwan sa Haba ng Gabi''


11. "Akala mo lang wala.. pero meron!! meron!! meron!!"

- Carlo Aquino in 'Bata...Bata..Pa'no ka Ginawa?'


12."Gutay-gutay na ang katawan nyo... pati na ang kaluluwa nyo!"

- Sharon Cuneta in 'Pasan Ko ang Daigdig''


13. "Sabel! This must be love!"

- Carmi Martin in 'Working Girls'


14."FPJ: "Ang problema sa'yo maaga kang ipinanganak"

Sharon: "Ang problema naman sa'yo huli kang ipinanganak"

in The Movie'Kahit Konting Pag - Tingin'



15. "Wala akong pakialam..ibalik mo sa akin si Jun-jun. Ibalik mo sa akin ang anak ko!

Ibalik mo sa akin si Jun-jun. Ibalik mo ang...ahhhhh!"

- Vilma Santos in 'Paano ba ang Mangarap?'



16. "Kung saan, kailan, at paanong labanan, magpasabi ka lang. Hindi kita uurungan!"

- Sharon Cuneta in 'Dapat Ka bang Mahalin?'


17. Alice: "Mamamatay ako, Ate, pag kinuha mo sa akin si Alex!"

Lorna: "Ipalilibing kita."

in The Movie 'Nagbabagang Luha'


18. "Simple lang naman ang hinihingi ko. Kung hindi mo ako marespeto bilang asawa,

respetuhin mo naman ako bilang kaibigan. Kung hindi naman, respetuhin mo ako bilang

tao."

- Vilma Santos in 'Relasyon'


19. Rene: "cheetaehhh....ganda lalake!"

Echo: "ulol! Sinungaling! Panget! Panget!"

- Rene Requestas in 'Cheetaeh'


20."Kung hindi tayo kikilos sino ang kikilos? Kung hindi ngayon, kailan pa?"

- Vilma Santos in 'Sister Stella L.'


21. "I was never your partner, I'm just your Wife!"

-Sharon Cuneta in 'Madrasta'


22. "I, did not kill Anyboooddy!

-Nora Aunor in 'The Flor Contemplacion Story'


23. "Putang-ina! (Slaps doctor) Diyos ka ba? Diyos ka ba para diktahan ang buhay ko?

Ayoko nito! Ayoko nito!

- Vilma Santos in 'The Dolzura Cortez Story'


24. "Kung naigapos ko man ang puso mo ang sa akin ay pinatay ko!"

- Lorna Tolentino in 'Nakagapos na Puso'


25."Lahat ng ibinibigay ko sa pamilya ko ibinibigay ko rin sa iyo! lahat! lahat! lahat!
lahat lahat lahat!"

-CLAUDINE BARRETO in 'MILAN'


26. "Hindi niyo maiintindihan dahil gusto niyong palabasin na masama akong babae!"

-CHIN-CHIN GUTIERREZ in 'IPAGLALABAN KO THE MOVIE'


27."You made me believe, you made me believe we had a

chance..."

-SHARON CUNETA in 'MINSAN MINAHAL KITA'


28."Pagmasdan mo ang mukhang ito! basahin mo sa mukhang ito ang di mabilang na

kasalanan ninyo at nang inyong ama sa akin at sa aking ina!"

-HILDA KORONEL in 'KUNG MAHAWI MAN ANG ULAP'



29."Bayaran mo ng buhay ng anak mo ang buhay ng anak ko!"

-SHARON CUNETA in ' MAGKAPATID'


30."Nagpanggap akong class dahil yun ang sinabi nila sa akin. eh ikaw sino ang nagsabi

sa iyong magpanggap kang tao?"

-JUDY ANN SANTOS in 'I'M SORRY MY LOVE'



31."Ang hirap sa iyo hindi mo na makuha ng tama ang order, hindi mo na maluto ng tama

ang sisig, hindi ka pa magkaanak!"

-DIETHER OCAMPO in 'GIMIK THE REUNION'


32."Pag-ibig?! putanginang pag-ibig yan!"

-NANNETE MEDVED in 'NARITO ANG PUSO KO'



33."Galit ako sa mga lalake dahil wala na silang ibang ginawa kundi iwan ang pamilya

ko! galit ako sa sarili ko dahil putangina! ikaw ang kauna-unahang lalaking minahal

ko!"

-REGINE VELASQUEZ in 'DAHIL MAY ISANG IKAW'



34."I never really believed in forever toni. but i think I found forever in you."

-RICO YAN in 'GOT TO BELIEVE'


35. "Hihintayin kita sa langit gabriel..."

'-DAWN ZULUETA in 'HIHINTAYIN KITA SA LANGIT'



36."Ligaya... ligaya ang itawag mo sa akin... yan ang trabaho ko, nagbibigay ng aliw..."

-ROSANNA ROCES in 'LIGAYA ANG ITAWAG MO SA AKIN'



37."Bukas, luluhod ang mga tala!"

- SHARON CUNETA in 'BUKAS LULUHOD ANG MGA TALA'



38."Mahal mo ba ako, dahil kailangan mo ako o kailangan mo ako kaya mahal mo ako?"

- CLAUDINE BARRETO in 'MILAN'



39."Sana sa bawat sigarilyomg hinihitit mo, sa bawat alak na iniinom mo, sana naisip mo

kung ilan pagkain ang tiniis kong hindi kainin para lang may ipadala sa inyo"

- VILMA SANTOS in 'ANAK'



40. "Ding...ang bato!"

- VILMA SANTOS in 'DARNA'



41. "Eddie Garcia: Marami ka pang bigas na kakainin!

FPJ: Hindi ako kumakain ng bigas, Major. Sinasaing ko muna bago kong kakainin.

Ikaw Major, palay palang, kinakain mo na.

EG: Shit!

FPJ: Shit ka rin!

- in The Movie 'KAPAG PUNO NA ANG SALOP II'



42."Ang hirap sa'yo, sala ka sa init, sala ka sa lamig. Isinusuka ka ng diyos, iniluluwa ka

ng langit."

-VILMA SANTOS in 'T-BIRD AT AKO'



43."Taas na nga kamay ko sayo eh, mahal na nga kita palagay ko eh, maging sino ka

man"

- ROBIN PADILLA in 'MAGING SINO KA MAN'



44. Maricel: "Wag kang makaarte-arte na 'kala mo kung sino ka dahil sampid ka lang

dito!"

Lorna: Hindi ba pareho lang tayo dito? Pinulot lang sa lupa?"

– Maricel Soriano and Lorna Tolentino in Pinulot Ka Lang sa Lupa



45."Noong una hinangaan kita. Pero nang makilala kita, sinabi ko sa sarili ko na hindi

lang kita papantayan, lalampasan pa kita!"

– Sharon Cuneta in Bituing Walang Ningning



46. "Si Belinda kabit 'yun. Ako legal wife."

-Zsa Zsa Padilla in Mano Po 2



47."Bakit ang ama, makapag-trabaho lang sya at maibigay ang pangangailangan ng anak

mabuti na sa paningin ng iba?!... pero bakit ang ina ginawa mo ng lahat... nagpakapagod

ka, masama parin sa paningin ng iba?!"

-VILMA SANTOS in 'ANAK'



48."Oo, bahay ko 'to!, dahil ako ang nagbabayad ng ilaw, ako ang nagbabayd ng

tubig! Get out of my house! I don't need a parasite!"

-MARICEL SORIANO in 'SEPARADA'



49. "Darating siya, alam ko darating siya at mamahalin niya

ako para sa mga taong hindi nagmahal sa akin..."

-MARICEL SORIANO in 'IKAW PA LANG ANG MINAHAL'



50.Vilma Santos:"Ako pa rin ang asawa, karugtong ng buhay, kasiping

sa kama!"

Maricel Soriano:"Ang anak hindi napapalitan pero ang asawa

nahihiwalayan!!!"

-VILMA SANTOS AND MARICEL SORIANO in 'YESTERDAY,

TODAY AND TOMORROW'



51."Walang hindi nakakakilala sa pangalang MAGNOLIA DELA CRUZ, ang hindi

nakakakilala sa pangalang ito ay ASO lamang!!!"

-NORA AUNOR in 'BILANGIN MO ANG BITUIN SA LANGIT'



52."Aryaaa"

- Cesar Montano in 'Muro-ami'



53. Aga Muhlach: "Did You even love me?"

Maricel Soriano: "Sobra!, kahit alam ko hindi na tama!"

- in The Movie "A Love Story"



54."Oh yes kaibigan mo ako, kaibigan mo lang ako... And I'm so stupid to make the

biggest mistake of falling in love with my bestfriend!!!"

-MS. JOLINA MAGDANGAL in 'Labs kita okey ka lang?"



55. "OO! Inaamin ko! Saging lang kami... Pero maghanap ka ng puno sa buong

Pilipinas... saging lang ang may puso! SAGING LANG ANG MAY PUSO!"

-Mark Lapid in 'Apoy sa Dibdib ng Samar'



56. "Ayoko nga ng number one. Syempre pag may number one, may number two.."?

-Sharon Cuneta in My Only Love



57. "Ang Pagmamahal walang nakikitang panahon, walang nakikitang wakas!"

-Iza Calzado in 'Moments of Love'



58. Regine: "Makakarating ka naman 'di ba?"

Piolo: "I'm getting there"

- Regine Velasquez and Piolo Pascual in 'Paano Kita IIbigin?'



59. "It's not enough to accept me for what I am, You also have to accept me for what I'm

not"

- Anne Curtis in 'When Love Begins'



60. "Akala ko mahirap mag-panggap na mahal kita, mas mahirap pala mag-panggap na hindi kita mahal"

- Marian Rivera in 'My Bestfriend's Girlfriend'



61. "Sir, Ga'no ka-close?"

- Sarah Geronimo in 'A Very Special Love'



62. "Bebe ko!!!"

- John Lloyd Cruz and Sarah Geronimo in 'You Changed My Life



63."Dahil nandito ka na, papa-baunan kita ng 'Powerhug'!"

- Sarah Geronimo in 'You Changed My Life


64. Iza Calzado: "Ako ang First Love, First Kiss, First Everything"

Marian Rivera: "I only Have Him"

Iza Calzado: "Diyan ka nagkakamali, You have the only thing I've ever wanted in My life"

in The Movie 'One True Love'



65. John Lloyd: bakit andito sya? bakita kasama mo sya?

Sarah: kasi wala ka... kasi sya yung nandito.. kasi wala ka!

John Lloyd: Laida, hindi mo alam ang mga pinagdaanan ko para makarating dito..

-in 'You Changed My Life


66. "Gusto mo talagang malaman problema ko? nasasaktan ako..kahet alam kong wala

na kong karapatan..dahil naisip kong ako naman ang may gusto nito..pero hanggang

ngayon umaasa pa rin ako.. na sana ako pa rin.. sana ako na lang.. sana ako na lang

ulit….."

-Bea Alonso in One More Chance



67. “She loved me at my worst, you had me at my best, but you chose to break my heart.”

-John Lloyd Cruz in One More Chance



68. "kung pwede lang sana, I had five more days, five more years, five more lifetimes

with Him! You may have loved Him longer, but that doesn't mean I loved Him any less!"

- Bea Alonzo in 'And I Love You So'



69. “Anak ko siya. Sakin siya nanggaling. Ako ang nagpalaki sa kanya. Kaya bawat

hininga’t utot niya alam ko ang ibig sabihin.

-Vilma Santos in In My Life



70. “Anak mo lang siya. Hindi mo sa pag-aari. At hindi lang ikaw ang may karapatang

magmahal sa kanya. Hindi lang sa yo umiikot ang mundo at hindi titigil ito kahit na

mawala ka pa. ”

-John Lloyd Cruz in In My Life